This morning I discovered a small hole in my slacks (of course, right after I got to work so there was no way to change them) and the sole of my left shoe suddenly detached itself halfway through the day (yep, time for a new pair).
But, I got a few items checked off my endless to-do list. I took a nice long walk around campus during my lunch hour. I soaked up a little sun and enjoyed the beautiful spring day. I did a little reading. I had a great discussion with the front desk crew in my office about the best characters and movies in the Marvel universe. I got an email from Dr. Nakhai (and it sounds like I just might get to spend some much-needed time with her in June). I had a nice dinner with Stevie and the kids (Blue Apron for the win!). I listened to an episode of My Favorite Murder and the Come From Away soundtrack (yeah, I’m just a wee bit obsessed with both). I enjoyed a Cadbury Egg, (mmm…my favorite!) I had a good talk with Henry as I rocked him before bed. I had a good laugh watching the new episode of Bob’s Burgers with Stevie and Cadence. And I just might be getting to bed at a reasonable hour.
How’s that for an awesome day?
It happens to everyone at some point–life just gets to flying by and you’re so busy and bogged down and buried that you feel yourself getting lost in the middle of it. There was a time in my life when these situations may have overwhelmed me, stopped me in my tracks, knocked me flat on my ass. We’ve all had those moments haven’t we? When things just sort of spiral out of control? But what I’ve learned through the years is how to maintain balance, how to stand in that crazy, chaotic space and not let life knock me down.
What can I say? I’m stubborn.
But more than that, I think I’ve managed to develop a pretty decent perspective. And it has a little something to do with this…
“Harry, I’m going to let you in on a little secret. Every day, once a day, give yourself a present. Don’t plan it. Don’t wait for it. Just let it happen. It could be a new suit in a men’s store, a catnap in your office chair, or two cups of good, hot, black coffee like this.” -Special Agent Dale Cooper, Twin Peaks
Maybe I’m a glass-half-full girl. Maybe my default these days tends to be on the positive, looking for opportunities in the challenges. It’s not that I ignore issues or never feel frustration–it’s that I don’t allow myself to get bogged down and wallow in it.
Trust me, I’ve been there. And life is way too short to stay in that negative space and be miserable.
Instead, I make a choice every day–a choice to do the best I can with the circumstances presented to me. I can’t control everything. (Not even close!) But I can control the way I react, and the way I choose to respond. And I’m going to make mistakes along the way. We all do. And I’m okay with that, because I’m going to own those mistakes and learn from them and use what I learn to do better.
It’s been a really busy few days (hell, it’s been a really busy few months, years, decade!), but even in those busiest times, I make a point to be present, to give myself that present, to find the little bits of beauty in every day. And this was one of those moments today, looking up to see some soft snow flurries beginning to swirl outside my window, and a large hawk perched serenely on the bare branch of a tree.
I paused for a moment to admire him, thinking what a gift it is to see the world from that bird’s eye view, having the opportunity to look around at that big picture and not get lost in the details. It was a long day, a busy day, a challenging day. No doubt. But from where I’m sitting and soaking it all in, it was a really good day too. Because every day is a good day, if you get out of your own way and allow it to be..
So it’s time to really put up or shut up with this 365 Project. Either I get serious and commit to daily posts, or I don’t. It’s that simple.
My biggest issue is myself. It always has been. I get in my own way. I psyche myself out. I talk myself out of writing by telling myself that I’m no good or that I don’t have anything relevant to say. I let that little voice of self-doubt weasel its way in and wreak havoc when what I should really be doing is what I do best without passing judgement on what I haven’t even written yet.
Just a couple more important life lessons from everyone’s favorite Cadence LaRue…
1. When life gets tough and you feel like you’re mired in a rut so deep that you are afraid you’ll never get out of it, try doing something to change your perspective. Sometimes seeing things from a different angle is all you need to figure it out.
2. If you’re having one of those days when absolutely everything is going wrong, the only surefire way to turn things around is to put your pants on your head and dance. Seriously, who can be blue when they’re dancing?
Tonight’s 365 Project entry is dedicated to my girl and all her wisdom. You’d be amazed what you can learn from a toddler.