Project Life 365 – Day 4 – Graceful

For all their strange little quirks, their maddening whiny persistence, their volatile little tempers, kids have a way of bringing the simple truths of life into sharp perspective.

They have a way of reminding you what’s important.

Becoming a parent automatically makes you neurotic. I don’t care how easygoing or zen you think  you are. The moment you welcome one of these beautiful little beings into your life, you automatically become a card-carrying member of the Second Guessers Club and you lose your freakin’ mind. Suddenly, every decision you have to make is a matter of life or death.

No joke, folks. Have a kid and suddenly something as simple as cooking a box of Mac & Cheese for dinner can make you question whether you’re really cut out to be a parent.

Jesus, Mac & Cheese again. I suck. 95% of the ingredients on this label are things that don’t even exist in nature. I wonder what it’s doing to little Johnny’s insides? Shit! He’s only eaten it like 4 times in his life. I wonder what it’s doing to my insides? I probably already have a hole in my intestines somewhere. Or maybe it just causes stomach cancer. I wonder if I already have stomach cancer? Oh Jesus! I’m not even going to get to see my own kid go to high school! Dammit! Where are the vegetables? Did I wash these good enough? I wonder how long I need to to cook them to kill all the bacteria and pesticides that Dr. Oz says are crawling all over them. Maybe it was Dr. Phil. Maybe it wasn’t even a doctor. Crap! The doctor. Wasn’t Johnny supposed to have an appointment last week? Maybe it was this week. What day is it? God, I suck at this.

By the time you get to the big decisions–like vaccination schedules or choosing a school–you’d be better off just handing over your entire paycheck to a licensed psychiatrist because Lord knows one of you is going to need it. Maybe more than one. Maybe all of you.

Kids though? They’re not worrying about all of that stuff. They’re not driving themselves crazy thinking about all the could’ves, should’ves, and would’ves. They’re not worrying about what’s happening next year, next week, or even tomorrow. They’re living, right now, and they’re enjoying every moment of it…right up until Mom and Dad start getting all antsy and kill the fun.

So, I’ve made a conscious decision to try and quell that annoying inner monologue that keeps me questioning each and every decision I make. Taking a cue from my daughter, I’m making it a point to let myself slow down and enjoy the little pleasures in life, and not worry so much about the bullshit. When you shut off the noise in your brain and allow yourself to really focus on and enjoy the present moment, the ordinary becomes magical, and something as simple as watching the graceful brushstrokes of a budding artist can make you believe that all is right in the world.

And, for that moment, it is.

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My First Red Thread Session Blogged

Forgive me for shamelessly plugging my business blog again, but I have to admit, I’m pretty proud of this most recent photo session.

Anyone who knows me, knows that my adoption has played a huge role in my life. I have been blessed in unimaginable ways because my birthparents made the difficult choice to let me go, and then welcome me back into their lives 22 long years later. Being an adoptee is as much a part of me as my blue-green eyes and my inability to perform complicated math problems without getting a migraine. It’s just who I am.

I always hoped that I could give back to the adoption community one day, that I could find a way to help other families as they begin their own incredible journeys. I’m still working on writing my story, knowing that the highs and lows and years of confusion and turmoil and pain will likely resonate deeply with other adoptees who are trying to find their own places in the world. One day, I’ll find some time to finish it. 🙂

In the meantime, one of my good photographer friends told me about the Red Thread Sessions organization a few months ago, and I knew immediately that I wanted to get involved.

In a nutshell, Red Thread Sessions is a non-profit organization that helps adoptive families connect with professional photographers who agree to volunteer their time and talent to helping the families capture some of their first memories together. Depending on the situation, the photographers may be asked to photograph the birth of a child, a family returning home with their new child from overseas, or even a family session after the child has settled into his/her new home. The families receive the full session and proofs from their session free of charge.

I submitted my portfolio immediately, and was thrilled when I received approval to become a RTS volunteer. Then, just three weeks ago, I received my first inquiry. I posted the P Family’s gallery today and shared their story and a few of my favorite images from their session on my StoriTyme Photos Blog. The blog post will also be featured on the RTS website, and is currently pending approval.

So, please head over to the StoriTyme Photos Blog by clicking the link or the photo below to see a few photos of the amazing family I got to spend an evening with at my very first Red Thread Session. Thanks for looking!

Whitney’s Prom–Blogged

Click on the photo below to head on over to the StoriTyme Photos blog. Believe me, you don’t want to miss it. 🙂

Katie’s Senior Prom – Sneak Peek on StoriTyme Photos

An official sneak peek of Katie’s prom photos has been blogged on my StoriTyme Photos blog. Click on the photo below to check it out…

StoriTyme Photos – I Heart Faces April Entry

Head on over and check it out…

StoriTyme Photos News

Yep folks, it’s a shameless plug. I spent today working on a post for my StoriTyme Photos blog. Nothing crazy, just an update of all the behind-the-scenes work that has been going on with the business during the slow winter season. So head on over and leave some love, will ya? 🙂